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See that's all I want to do Billy-Boy. I want to leap of this pier and fly high in the air, hang with the wind and drift through the clouds. And at night, with the Moon full and the sea wild, I meet my lover high on a cliff and we'd swoop down into the ocean and swim all the way and touch the bottom, then up through the dark water and break the surface. Then we'd fly to Jamaica for Pina Colatas... God, I wish I could do that.

decision under the gun

i was planning to move
to a new place end of june
but a pretty sweet appartment
2 minutes from work
in beauty port credit
steps from the lake
came available

i only saw it yesterday
and have to decide today or they give it up

this decision will impact so many things

and i need a sign

some days
i think i may always be
auntie sarah




dropping by
swinging through
and teaching
the ropes

i am meeting my best buddies
for brunch today
at our old stomp in toronto
House on Parliament
it has been way too long since we hung
but the beauty is
it will feel like yesterday

blessed



my niece
my dog
and me

i am love love loving
the warm weather
and bright nights

i can't wait to wear flip flops
running skirts
and flowy dresses

and explore my new
old
city
on bike

and sit on patios
and smell cut grass
and then lay in it
and get all messy

i want to join a baseball league
and play catch with maddie
and then flop on a hammack
to read mindless smut

spring

you
are
awesome

still on it

these things are keeping me
afloat


day 8 of no sweets
not so much as a chocolate chip

willpower

for the first time ever
i'm giving into the anti-indulgence event
that is lent


i have decided to give up my right arm
okay maybe not
but close

for the next 46 days**
i will give up all sweets

ach

so tonight i consumed
three chocolate pecan cookies
smarties
a brownie
and pancakes for dinner

tomorrow is day one
i anticipate a huge change in my cravings
after only a few days

although not looking forward
to the process
i am going to sure as shit enjoy the destination

another reason to love easter

** although typically known to be 40 days, the period of lent actually covers 46 days when sundays are included

okay
so everyone got a medal
but i earned this baby

its amazing
how running can humble a person
my half marathon time this morning
was my slowest to date
by 2 minutes
granted
but it never ceases to amaze me
how my little 'ol body just does
what she wants
despite what my mind tells her

this was my comeback race
so to speak
after having been off due to injury
it was time to come back to conquer

funny how people are so willing
eager even
to put themselves through such pain
in order to experience
such euphoria

it is what makes the strong
strong

back at it
dusting herself off
ready for the next challenge
the beauty is
that in this case its all about both the journey
and the destination


one day very soon i will conquer you

i am thankful
that i'm a minimalist
and don't desire extravagence
i prefer
to spend my money
on experiences
on memories
and things that will bring me lots of happiness

adventures in far off lands
coffees in dimly lit coffee shops
books
running shoes
dinners with friends
vitamins to stay healthy
wine to keep warm

and pennies
for your thoughts