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35 years
and still going strong



















i have the best friends a girl could ask for

i met melissa when i was in college

we were like peas and carrots
we were co-prez's of the HR council
we did all our projects together
and we had lots of laughs

that was over ten years ago

on friday
i hung with her
and her hubby paul
and their two boys

who are all angels

nathan made me this beauty necklace
which i will wear proudly
on the first day of my new job
that starts tomorrow

beautiful
natural
and inspirational

i crave being alone
unless the time i am with people
is meaningful

you really get an idea of the strength
of someone
when you see how they react to
being alone

many
unfortunately
find it too unbearable

likely due to insecurity
or boredom with themselves
or a constant need to be needed
by others

i often think
that one of the best relationships i have
is the one i have with myself
the discussions within my mind
the thoughts that generate emotion
and the complete faith
that i will find someone who will see 
how awesome
i see me

this guy makes me laugh
every time
and forever

jesus
what just happened to 365 days?

such a whirlwind

sold my fitness biz
moved to the burbs
got a new job
took a year off from dating
tested for fertility
reconnected with friends from forever ago
that i will have forever
and learned more about myself than i have in the decades prior


its funny how the first years of your life are spent
experiencing new things
understanding needs and wants
and starting to love the person you have become

until today
i have done as much as i can to absorb
as much as i can of the world around me

and now
i feel
like the next phase of my life
is picking through everything
the best of the best
and using these experiences
this knowledge
to make the next 34 years as amazing
and memorable as the last
no regrets
no what could have been's
and no looking back