radmad.ca

hey there

2012-01-17T08:11:00.000-05:00

bliss

2012-01-17T07:49:00.000-05:00

i don't know what it is with me
and quotes lately
maybe getting sentimental in my old age

today is my one year anniversary at my "new" gig
still loving it
still feels like the honeymoon stage
which is quite incredible
because i tend to bore easily
unless i feel engaged, challenged and excited
about something
in which case
i'm loyal
beyond loyal

raison d'etre

2012-01-13T07:39:00.000-05:00

you don't have to dig too deep
if you want to find some dirt on me

just do it. okay i will

2011-12-28T21:02:00.000-05:00

my lungs are buuuurning
-18 degrees outside
fuk'n cold
which means i'm feeling pretty awesome
and even managed
to lap
every single couch lounger out there
ya lazies

merry christmas jerks

2011-12-24T09:13:00.000-05:00

this christmas is gonna suck
which is okay
things have to be crappy to make you appreciate
the awesome

which is just
around the corner

pop

2011-12-23T07:52:00.000-05:00

gramps with his two lasses
i will miss you
and i hope good comes of your loss
like stronger relationships
and closer ties

reason #38 why radmad is single

2011-12-20T05:55:00.000-05:00

cockblocked by my ex cock

2011-12-18T21:18:00.000-05:00

superjudge and radmad
went to the leafers game last night
like old times
except sans the sex

i started talking to the guy next to me
he made me laugh
and shared his pretzel m&m's
i told craig that i should have brought a chick
because my ovaries were singing
at the bevy of hot men
in attendance

and well
he was cramping my single styles
so i told guy next to me that
i was with my ex
from like five years ago
and then dude asked if we were going to get it on
something about an olive branch
i dunno

anyways i toyed with giving him my number
and then also waited to see if he'd ask
and craig whispered to me that i could do better
i mean he was not overly attractive
but he had personality

gah
on old client gave me the tiks
and he was in his company's seats
hmmm
perhaps i will hunt him down

calling magnum PI

heard you like the bad girls honey

2011-12-01T08:19:00.003-05:00

pink lady

2011-12-01T07:49:00.000-05:00

the people above me are still smoking
it is fuking gross
and it makes me want to scream

so i got this
to jam up the vent in my bathroom
because that is where the stench
comes from

i feel so violated
i also feel scared to touch this shit
like little particles of it are going to get lodged
in my lungs and i'm going to have trouble breathing
forever

its for things like this
that a boyfriend slash husband
would be ideal

early to rise

2011-11-29T04:36:00.000-05:00

i'm not quite sure
how clear i have made this
in the past
but i love mornings
and by mornings
i mean cusp of middle of the night

that totally says 4:23 AM

i am a fully functioning human
at this time
although a bit pre-alarm
i am ready to rock

i dated a guy once
who hated it
i would get out of bed for a run
and i don't know why
but it drove him nuts

but then
he drove me nuts
for other reasons

but only a little
i had a huge crush on him
never fell in love
but then
i didn't really stick around long enough to find out

lulu make lemon-ade

2011-11-28T19:57:00.000-05:00

cool find

so if you peel the one side off a lululemon bag
there is a whole new sheet of awesome stuff underneath

When we are 2 or about to die, we lack the ability to change most of our lives. when we are drunk or stoned, we are massively creative but we forget what we were creative about. the post orgasm time is not long enough and childbirth creativity is very center focused. The athlete's "high" is the most long lasting as it can last for up to 6 hours. Humans become addicted to creative moments because when we are creative, we feel the most in control of our lives.

amazing!
who would have thought lululemon
proponents of health and wellness
would refer to being drunk, stoned and orgasmic

and so that
in a nutshell
is why i run
drink
and have sex

to induce creativity

the sequel

2011-11-16T07:50:00.001-05:00

guess why i smile alot, uh, cause its worth it

trez adorable

coffee tawk

2011-11-10T07:07:00.001-05:00

all i want to do
is put on a warm sweater
and walk to the second cup up the street
and curl up on a big leather chair
warm irish cream coffee
and a book

please saturday
please come quick

but in the meantime
i have a couple of awesome work days ahead
in the process of hiring the top 2 senior
peeps
at the company
one will be my bosses' boss
and today i head to georgian college
to lure superstars to work for us
i work in a predominantly male industry
sooooo
a short skirt it is!

never had a religion to lose, but if i did

2011-11-04T07:44:00.000-04:00

rem's last single
its beautiful
it always makes me sad when the great things
come to an end

reminds me
that nothing lasts forever

up to the date

2011-11-02T21:09:00.000-04:00

shiznat that's been going down...

i'm on my eleventh straight day of work
i love my job
got a renewal notice for my license and she needs an emission test
i may be having a bug funeral soon
i have a school girl crush
from afar
on a guy who is way too old and way too unavailable
for halloween this year i was a zombie widow
the dina chick on BT drives me nuts
i don't see my friends enough lately
i want to loose eight pounds
and i've got one hundred bucks on the line
can "reality" tv shows please go away now
i think i will quit my book club
i've used my fav saying three times this week
"it's better to beg for forgiveness
than ask for permission"
it has served me well each time

romance

2011-10-28T21:32:00.000-04:00

so a guy i went on two dates with
about 2 months ago
texts me yesterday
says he's sorry for not being in touch
got busy with school
but wants to know
if he can hire me
to do his resume

cha ching
i am totally reworking my online profile

red eye reduction fail

2011-10-23T21:30:00.000-04:00

radmad is anywhere a pile of leaves calls to you to jump in it

once upon a time

2011-10-22T23:47:00.001-04:00

hells ya

2011-10-19T08:03:00.002-04:00

sexy dancing

2011-10-18T08:44:00.000-04:00

i watched dirty dancing this weekend
god i miss 80's movies
back when they were released
but maybe even more now
life in those movies just seemed so much
simpler
and people seemed to connect more
genuine connections
not like today
where they are too fluid and
electronic

some plenty of fish guy messages me
tells me to call
but i got the note late
so i texted
and i hear back 2 days later
because he was sooo busy
argh
too busy to text
lame

chalk it up to another
"and that's why radmad is single"

achieved my goal at the half marathon
of under two hours
it felt good
huge accomplishment
legs felt awesome yesterday
did a little jig even

in other news
i have exciting news
but it has to wait

speed demon

2011-10-15T08:37:00.000-04:00

so doing this thing tomorrow
i'm actually really excited
excited about the agony i'm going to endure
and the feeling of accomplishment
as i cross the finish line

and then hobble for at least
2 days after

can't wait!

bizzy beez

2011-10-14T02:31:00.000-04:00

live life
hands
free

early riser

2011-10-10T21:54:00.001-04:00

love
this!

tying knots

2011-10-08T07:35:00.002-04:00

i'm going to a wedding today
thought i was pretty much done with them
now its babies galore
work chick getting hitched today
forever and always
love ever after
yeah

you so crazy

2011-10-06T19:27:00.000-04:00

do something great
what are you afraid of?

fall hard

2011-10-04T21:28:00.000-04:00

okay i'm starting to fall in love
with fall
warm clothes
cozy curl ups on the couch
tea
not lemonade
oven baked brownies
not ice cream
candles
not rays of sun beaming in

just watched New Girl
love it
so quirky
and smart funny
and giggly maker
of me

oh you silly monster

2011-10-04T07:42:00.000-04:00

okay this cracked me up

spin spin sugar

2011-10-02T18:16:00.002-04:00

i went to my aunt's funeral yesterday
actually it was a celebration of life ceremony
that is what they are called now
i suppose i should know that
i have been to enough of them
it was very nice

it was cold and windy today
it is fall now
oh boy is it ever
my run this morning was breezy
maybe because i was going fast
heh
and because i had about 2 layers
less than i should have

i've been working on three different resumes
this weekend
for three different people
a side gig of sorts
i do a pretty kickass resume if i can get away with sayin
its interesting how every person wakes up
and does such a different thing than the next
and it never ceases to amaze me
how talented people with such diverse skills
and genuinely valuable contributions to make
stay in jobs they hate

i guess the same can be said for relationships
which is perhaps why i am so good at doing
resumes

transferable skills

i bought crazy glue yesterday
to glue a bunch of shit
and a bunch splat out onto my left peter pointer finger
and it stuck on good
and shiny
awesome

if i eat one more raw halloween sugar cookie
i think i may get a tummy ache

i almost sing this good'ishnotevenclose

2011-09-29T21:39:00.000-04:00

this show is hokey
but this guy is the real deal

totes gave me goosebumps
and a tear or two

dead or drunk?

2011-09-29T05:54:00.001-04:00

i say dead

guy smiley

2011-09-28T07:39:00.000-04:00

nearing the end of training for the scotiabank half marathon
excited to race
hoping to hold back the injuries
and run strong

this guy has the most infectious smile
and those dimples

divine

2011-09-26T05:56:00.000-04:00

love ya pretty lady

smell ya later

2011-09-23T22:37:00.000-04:00

i am trying really hard
to train the guy
who lives in the apartment above me

now that the weather has turned
he smokes inside
and the stink seeps down to my place

so every time he lights up
i light up
the incense

so everytime he smokes
his apartment gets all girly smelly

my hypothesis is that his subconscious
will smell the incense
as soon as he so much as thinks of lighting his cancer stick

i should start logging statistical results

the one variable i have not been able to confirm yet
is whether he's as smart
as a dog

falling back up again

2011-09-22T08:12:00.003-04:00

unbelievable
summer is over
where did it go?

in my back pocket maybe

i wonder what life would be like
with zero constraints
no deadlines
only self imposed expectations
and mulligans
yeah
lots of those

i suppose it would be too easy
well
easy for those of us who thrive
on challenge
and have a strong penchant
for gusto

gah
i'm late for work

parental discretion advised

2011-09-18T21:10:00.002-04:00

definitely contains nudity (click pic to enlarge)

this little angel
made cottage weekend
a blast

and so did the smell of a fire
in an authentic log cabin

and so did the drive
through small northern towns
and open corn fields
and fields with horizontal horses

not showering for days
and running along dirt roads
roads travelled as a kid
to whispering pines campground with the rents
and sis
for summers

these are the best memories

summer days

2011-09-03T13:43:00.000-04:00

i have to stop watching old
romantic comedies
it makes a girl overly hopeful
that she will be swept away

but then i have been swept away

got me some straw

2011-08-24T21:39:00.000-04:00

this is awesome. thanks kyle

the anticipation of a chaotic storm tonight
is also
awesome

also can't wait for this

old friends
and farmers
and fishing
and picnics
and laying out in the sun
and singing along

smrt

2011-08-16T08:05:00.000-04:00

stay in school kids
so if you have a work meeting like i did last night
you can jump ship

gah
thank you lucky stars for my stellar
timing
in booking a long weekend
to head up north

twirly bird

2011-08-07T12:18:00.000-04:00

if asked if i'm "where i thought i would be"
when i was a young girl
i would say no

i suppose i expected to be
married
with kiddies
in a house
and a job

although i'm not there
not even close
i am riding the waves
of a life lived so far
full of dreams fulfilled
chances taken
and memories of dance cards

i have no regrets
that is for sure

but as the stories slow down
and time becomes watching
the amazing memories made of others
i realize that the next phase
of this life is ready to start

this girl of fierce
independence
a leaf taken up by gusts
is in search of roots
happy roots

she's about to go out on a limb

city and cooler than you

2011-08-03T21:15:00.001-04:00

this might be a fantastic
excuse to play hookie
on friday
sheepdogs and C&C
awesome

i weird you

2011-08-02T06:11:00.000-04:00

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird,
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness
and call it love

— Dr. Seuss

birddog walk

2011-07-25T21:57:00.000-04:00

i gained a new appreciation
for friendships
this weekend

cause
well
they are pretty awesome

maybe i'll sleep when i'm dead

2011-07-17T11:36:00.001-04:00

i've become the simple souvenier of someone's kill

i have been listening to these guys all weekend
swoon

park it right here

2011-07-16T15:33:00.000-04:00

found a cool spot in the shade
under a tree
and plowed through a third of the book

hanstar emailed a bunch of us
to start a book club
i love it
makes me feel kinda old on one level
as we look for creative ways to stay in touch
that no longer revolve around preening
and partying

there is a cute boy in my apartment building
we meet impromptuously
with our dogs
i believe he's ten years my junior
i'm trying to restrain the little tigre within

sweet smells and sexy sandles

2011-07-15T07:54:00.000-04:00

oh man
i so look forward to weekends
there are a million things i want to do
and if i only get to do half of them
i will still be happy

this weather is infectious!

dating sucks

2011-07-03T22:16:00.002-04:00

it does

for years it was fun
full of stories
and fuk ups
and it didn't matters
because the world was my oyster
and i had forever and a day to find
the one

now its different
every date is now a test
a test of whether he will last

and newly moved from vancouver
in your mom's house
about to start a new vocation
and move to toronto
to be a hippie who is adverse to cars
just
won't
cut it

meh
i long for the days where i was
simply

in love

2011-07-03T11:26:00.000-04:00

this is my brand new
just out of the gift box nephew
fletcher

as you can see
he was born cool
naturally

so on the heels of my last bad date
where the gent was a whoppig 11 years older
than his profile
and a shoddy 3 inches shorter
than he was supposed to be
i am going on another 'first date'
tonight
this guy makes me laugh
he made fun of hipsters
and has the most awesomest hair ever

i'm kind of excited about this one
because he seems so genuine
laid back
and go with the flow

kinda like
one of my ex boyfriends
who i recently had a
"oh the good old times" flashback moment with

can't weight

2011-06-29T19:31:00.002-04:00

what can i do?

2011-06-29T07:13:00.002-04:00

just got my hands
on tiks to see these banditos
next week

woah baby

2011-06-28T07:56:00.000-04:00

so yesterday would have been
my mom's 63rd birthday
she was 46 years old when she died
which is only ten years older than i am now

so i sent my doctor an email
about that thing i've been talking to him about
for over a year now

well
its time

2011-06-26T05:27:00.000-04:00

the last guy i went out with
i flat out told him he was just
too nice for me

i wasn't trying to be mean
i just thought he would appreciate
the truth

and then when i was watching
picture perfect yesterday afternoon
kevin bacon said the exact same thing
to jennifer aniston
and she said i'm not that nice
and that is the exact same thing my date said
gah
i hope i'm not turning into kevin bacon
in picture perfect

the date guy before him got a simple
this is not going to work
three quarters through our meal
why waste our time and life is short

tonight is a new bachelor

rupturedate

2011-06-20T19:00:00.001-04:00

went to my oakvillian buds' place
a few days ago
for a bbq feast
must remember my bikini for next time
they have an inflatible pool
that has a pump
love the burbs

i should totes
get one for my apartment

date update

i have gone on 2 additional dates
with the guy of zee last post
fizzle has drizzled
he just won't cut it
and i couldn't picture myself with him
years from now
wrestlin' in bed for hours
hoppin' in the car for an impromput weekend up north
or flashin' secret glances at each other
at a busy backyard barby

cause isn't that what its about
the simple things
the heart flutterin pangs
of 'fuk yeah he's is the one'

well that was nice

2011-06-11T17:39:00.000-04:00

on the heels of another
bad bad date
i met someone pretty awesome last night
totally impromptu

friday
i was doing long overdue
laundry
watching no strings attached
and texting with some guy
i had never met
while he was out on a date

not a good one

so i told him to sneak off
and meet me
for a walk
with a bottle of red and plastic cups
to a barely lit spot under a tree
by the water
at nearly midnight

magical

i would go on first dates forever
if i could

heart stops here

2011-06-02T20:43:00.004-04:00

the best part about dating

is the anticipation of the next
best
date
ever

birthday biscotti

2011-05-21T09:50:00.000-04:00

happy happy birthday to you
i love everything you do
(except barking when i go out)
you don't look a day over thirteeeeeen
you're my best friend
it's true!

my humble abode

2011-05-18T07:24:00.000-04:00

so these are the new digs
looks a hell of alot
like the old digs

but i so love it here

master baiter

2011-05-16T21:06:00.000-04:00

heeeeere fishy fishy

so i'm on plenty of fish
and its plenty of work
i did a half assed profile
and tossed up a few pics

i am slighty unmotivated to spend much time
on it
but you never know right?

i had so much fun this weekend
hanging with friends
and making memories

i braved a church on saturday
to see mr nathan communioncate
and was not spit out at the alter
or struck by the powers that be
or sucked into my pew by the inhalation of christ
or beat up by the apostle possy

i survived!
which means i have been ering too closely to godliness

the sin

dunk

2011-05-10T21:33:00.003-04:00

i totally soaked my face today
winning an apple bobbing contest

true story

kaplow~

2011-05-02T07:27:00.001-04:00

life is awesome!

someone small
put my wad of keys into the microwave yesterday
and pressed start
and the sparks were a flyin'

feisty
so feisty

there is a good chance my car is dead
it is at the shop right now
and they could not figure out the problem
2 CAA calls yesterday
a tow
a pick up from dad
and an hour of surfing the net
for new cars

she is open to suggestions

new day

2011-05-01T10:40:00.002-04:00

Hooray hooray
the 1st of may

outdoor screwing
starts today

on my easter keaster

2011-04-23T22:46:00.000-04:00

probably one of my favourite holidays
because of the school girl memories
the abundance of chocolate
and because spring
is just around the bend

went to Springridge farms today
for an easter egg hunt
puppet show
petting zoo
and pony rides

i will go back to this farm soon
to pick strawberries
like i once did

went for a late night walk with the pooch
in port credit tonight
my god i love my new hood
the moon on the water
the smell of spring
and the small town feel

if i was yours

2011-04-22T21:44:00.000-04:00

but i'm not

so turn up your radio

love this song
love this band

lyrical junkie

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead"

spent today
with my oldest
dearest
friend
danielle

we exchanged tales
of life
and of love

and pondered
what is it that makes me
so adverse to relationships

mommie issues
from losing too early
or maybe just not finding the one
to settle down with
or perhaps
its just being too fiercely independent
to let anyone in

regardless of what it is that is swirling
in this girls' heart
and soul

she is hopeful
to find true love

again

life is just too crazy
too short
too magical

to do it alone

come on mister
wake up
find me

came through

2011-04-17T18:25:00.001-04:00

my best buddies
were totally there for me
to help with yet another move
this weekend

hangin my hat in a beauty
little town by the water

no internet yet
so i'm at a second cup
eating biscotti
and coffee
for dinner

a girl i have never met
welcomed me to the area
and told me my appartment
is the hot spot
of the hood

awesome

another guy
came to me clear across the room
to help me find a plug

so nice

i'm loving this place already
feels like home

pictures coming soon

grawwwr hac hac

2011-04-10T15:11:00.000-04:00

so i'm going to my very first
ever
Raptor's game tonight

i know nothing about basketball
or the players
or anything else for that matter
but i don't care
it is gonna be a slamdunk night

harder harder

2011-04-07T21:26:00.000-04:00

this week
i curled for the first time
in over 15 years

holy shit

it was with my work peeps
for a fun team night

the bad part was i was
a wee bit rusty

the good part was
i fit into the curling kilt
i wore in highschool

and it brought back lots
of amazing memories
of some of the best years
of my life

made me smile

caved

2011-04-05T06:40:00.000-04:00

fuk
fuk
fuk

i gave in and cheated at lent
it was a tiny nibble of Dufflet cake
that did me in

i'm
pissed at myself
back on the wagon though

or maybe its beast

2011-04-02T19:13:00.001-04:00

getting motivated to pack
call rogers to hook shit up
and do change of address
feels like a big mess
that i am not in the mood to tackle

its the right thing
but it just feels like the equivalent
of a lateral career move

the good thing is that there are some
pretty cool pubs in the hood
and its a big ass building
so i am pretty sure i will meet
lots of new peeps

i'm a social

in some respects
but a loner in others
in fact i'm right down the line of extrovert and introvert
i think so much
maybe too much
i'd probably be really good at chess

stealing home is where her heart is

2011-03-30T21:18:00.002-04:00

See that's all I want to do Billy-Boy. I want to leap of this pier and fly high in the air, hang with the wind and drift through the clouds. And at night, with the Moon full and the sea wild, I meet my lover high on a cliff and we'd swoop down into the ocean and swim all the way and touch the bottom, then up through the dark water and break the surface. Then we'd fly to Jamaica for Pina Colatas... God, I wish I could do that.

give me shelter

2011-03-29T05:26:00.000-04:00

decision under the gun

i was planning to move
to a new place end of june
but a pretty sweet appartment
2 minutes from work
in beauty port credit
steps from the lake
came available

i only saw it yesterday
and have to decide today or they give it up

this decision will impact so many things

and i need a sign

got the hand shakes

2011-03-21T21:10:00.001-04:00

some days
i think i may always be
auntie sarah

dropping by
swinging through
and teaching
the ropes

grainy

2011-03-20T07:41:00.001-04:00

i am meeting my best buddies
for brunch today
at our old stomp in toronto
House on Parliament
it has been way too long since we hung
but the beauty is
it will feel like yesterday

blessed

my niece
my dog
and me

springy

2011-03-18T07:07:00.002-04:00

i am love love loving
the warm weather
and bright nights

i can't wait to wear flip flops
running skirts
and flowy dresses

and explore my new
old
city
on bike

and sit on patios
and smell cut grass
and then lay in it
and get all messy

i want to join a baseball league
and play catch with maddie
and then flop on a hammack
to read mindless smut

spring

you
are
awesome

the wagon

2011-03-16T07:18:00.000-04:00

still on it

these things are keeping me
afloat

day 8 of no sweets
not so much as a chocolate chip

willpower

master of my domain

2011-03-08T22:04:00.000-05:00

for the first time ever
i'm giving into the anti-indulgence event
that is lent

i have decided to give up my right arm
okay maybe not
but close

for the next 46 days**
i will give up all sweets

ach

so tonight i consumed
three chocolate pecan cookies
smarties
a brownie
and pancakes for dinner

tomorrow is day one
i anticipate a huge change in my cravings
after only a few days

although not looking forward
to the process
i am going to sure as shit enjoy the destination

another reason to love easter

** although typically known to be 40 days, the period of lent actually covers 46 days when sundays are included

medalist

2011-03-06T18:23:00.000-05:00

okay
so everyone got a medal
but i earned this baby

its amazing
how running can humble a person
my half marathon time this morning
was my slowest to date
by 2 minutes
granted
but it never ceases to amaze me
how my little 'ol body just does
what she wants
despite what my mind tells her

this was my comeback race
so to speak
after having been off due to injury
it was time to come back to conquer

funny how people are so willing
eager even
to put themselves through such pain
in order to experience
such euphoria

it is what makes the strong
strong

back at it
dusting herself off
ready for the next challenge
the beauty is
that in this case its all about both the journey
and the destination

one day very soon i will conquer you

for rainy days

2011-03-01T21:21:00.000-05:00

i am thankful
that i'm a minimalist
and don't desire extravagence
i prefer
to spend my money
on experiences
on memories
and things that will bring me lots of happiness

adventures in far off lands
coffees in dimly lit coffee shops
books
running shoes
dinners with friends
vitamins to stay healthy
wine to keep warm

and pennies
for your thoughts

countdown to race day

2011-03-01T07:32:00.000-05:00

oh its a horse of course

2011-02-24T21:41:00.000-05:00

i think people at work
are starting to think i'm strange
because 96% of my wardrobe
is black

i just like black
i'm not flashy
and it looks nice with my long dark locks
and it goes with everything
and is a beautiful backdrop
for pretty necklaces

and just looks strong to me

you will never
ever
catch me wearing flowers
pink
or styles suitable for toddler clothes

i suppose my clothes
are like my life

minimalistic

and yet also completely unlike my life

predictable

charmed

2011-02-24T05:52:00.000-05:00

my dear friend melissa

made this pretty bracelet for me

she's so talented

and even has a website Brag about it

that kickass horse necklace in the background

however

is a one of a kind creation

made special

for me

basement stylz

2011-02-21T09:35:00.000-05:00

change your dwelling
change your life

she told you so

2011-02-19T01:21:00.000-05:00

if ever
there is a stop sign
right in fuk'n front of you
and you chose to ignore it

you're gonna crash and burn

someone like you

2011-02-18T07:30:00.000-05:00

i have heard Adele for some time

but wow
this is simply beautiful
moving
and even a little
goosebumpy

pumped

2011-02-17T05:15:00.001-05:00

i had a dream last night

that some old

preverted guy

was murdered at a garage party

and the whole time

i was at a gas station across the street

falling in love with some tall dark stranger

we met because he was perplexed
he came over and asked me
why was justin beiber filling up his car
and then giving me money

well its pretty obvious i told him
i put money in the pump
but my car would not take any gas
so i sold him what i had purchased

i wish in my dream
i'd have gotten this stranger's number

write the wrong

2011-02-15T19:44:00.000-05:00

i'm sitting at Williams Coffee shop
it's kinda like a pub
sans alcohol
drinking a coffee and burning my hands
on the mug

its pretty much as loud as a bar
alone in a booth with my lunky laptop
doing work
and not getting much work done

feeling overly creative
and inspired

its amazing how getting all of my little ducks in a row
frees my mind
i feel ready for anything
not bogged down
light and airy
deep breath
with a deeper exhale

life
she's fine

be mine. again.

2011-02-13T05:55:00.000-05:00

this was posted bright and early
on postsecret

i've thought about
sending in my secret
but the person i would want to see it
already knows it

root for me

2011-02-12T21:11:00.000-05:00

change of plans

too sore from weight training yesterday
had to put long run off a day
tomorrow
bright and early
i shall be enbarking on the route below

anyone interested in meeting me at the end
with a toasty cup of hot chocolate
and baileys
would be warmly welcomed

in exchange
maybe i will save you one of these
beauties

baked with <3

love love love

2011-02-09T21:09:00.000-05:00

not so fast
miss madison

okay
go fast!

not bad for an old lady eh?

i'm getting pumped for my half marathon
racy race
on march 6th

had too much fun this past weekend
so i missed my long run
s'okay though

gonna make up for it this saturday
with a little 23 click jaunt

its amazing how i can be totally tired
wiped
and lethargic
and then hit the icey air
and pow
i'm energized beyond belief

i swear running is making me feel younger
every day

that
and loving my new job

guess what i use as a bean bag chair

2011-02-04T07:07:00.000-05:00

true blue

2011-02-01T21:40:00.000-05:00

its so true...
its better to have love
and lost

better to have lost now
than to get into a relationship so deep
that getting out is so bad
that it makes you wish you had never
tread in the first place

i guess some people
just don't realize that relationships take work
love doesn't
both need to be unquestionably in it
heart and soul
no doubts
and no regrets

when staying in it is easy
and wrong
and getting out
is hard
and right

then i don't see what there is
to even consider

is she the one?
is he your forever?

did you hesitate?

awesome ad placements

2011-01-31T22:16:00.000-05:00

oh you crazy internet
sometimes
you are just so silly

more here

the dance of '11

2011-01-29T21:39:00.001-05:00

this might be right up there

with the African anteater ritual

ala can't buy me love

circa 1987

soul sister

2011-01-26T20:29:00.001-05:00

sometimes people go away

for a reason

and then they come back

because

well

that's just the way

it was meant to be

happy birthday to me

2011-01-23T20:47:00.000-05:00

35 years
and still going strong

i have the best friends a girl could ask for

run baby run

2011-01-18T21:41:00.000-05:00

i'm training for this right now

well cross-training

running

spinning

free weights

insanity

i feel amazing

so back on track its not funny

i just realized that

i have not been taking many pictures

as of late

i should do that more

girls like pretty things

2011-01-16T19:44:00.001-05:00

i met melissa when i was in college

we were like peas and carrots
we were co-prez's of the HR council
we did all our projects together
and we had lots of laughs

that was over ten years ago

on friday
i hung with her
and her hubby paul
and their two boys

who are all angels

nathan made me this beauty necklace
which i will wear proudly
on the first day of my new job
that starts tomorrow

just be alone sometimes

2011-01-15T18:37:00.000-05:00

beautiful
natural
and inspirational

i crave being alone
unless the time i am with people
is meaningful

you really get an idea of the strength
of someone
when you see how they react to
being alone

many
unfortunately
find it too unbearable

likely due to insecurity
or boredom with themselves
or a constant need to be needed
by others

i often think
that one of the best relationships i have
is the one i have with myself
the discussions within my mind
the thoughts that generate emotion
and the complete faith
that i will find someone who will see
how awesome
i see me

we estimate you are angry

2011-01-02T00:36:00.002-05:00

this guy makes me laugh
every time
and forever

2010, thanks for not being a jerk

2011-01-01T09:06:00.000-05:00

jesus
what just happened to 365 days?

such a whirlwind

sold my fitness biz
moved to the burbs
got a new job
took a year off from dating
tested for fertility
reconnected with friends from forever ago
that i will have forever
and learned more about myself than i have in the decades prior

its funny how the first years of your life are spent
experiencing new things
understanding needs and wants
and starting to love the person you have become

until today
i have done as much as i can to absorb
as much as i can of the world around me

and now
i feel
like the next phase of my life
is picking through everything
the best of the best
and using these experiences
this knowledge
to make the next 34 years as amazing
and memorable as the last
no regrets
no what could have been's
and no looking back

hallelujah

2010-12-24T17:02:00.000-05:00